I'm Not Okay

So I wrote this in eighth grade and yes I know it sounds mega depressing but I didnt really feel this way I was just writing what sounded the most "deep" in my opinion.

im not ok,
for just a day,
i wish someone could see,
that in my heart,
i fall apart,
and life caves in on me,
a big black hole,
inside my soul,
makes me want to say,
that in my head,
i am so dead,
because you will not stay,
as life goes on,
i am a pon,
in gods larger plan,
i blead to death,
i'm so upset,
i dont know who i am,
smoedays are hard,
but just like cards,
you play them as they come,
you are a user,
and abuser,
you make me feel numb,
life goes so fast,
and in the past,
i would know what to do,
the shit has hit,
the fan again,
please help me help you,
i'm not ok,
for just a day,
i wish someone could see,
that i am dead,
not in my head,
its you, its them, its me.